things that make me nervous

my thesis project has become more and more complicated the more i work on it. the thesis, as a pratt senior, is only a chapter in this novel, apparently.

i started writing it about a year and a half ago. it began as a sort of experience where the main character is one of our world and finds himself in another where humans are not the dominant species. that idea came about from the things i see in our modern world; the energy crisis, the fact that corporations rule our world, and the irresponsibility of the people who are influenced by the coporate-mandated media. my father is a geologist so i am constantly in arms length reach of scientific research and progress of today, which is a big influence on my behavior and art.

i decided that making this a linear project would be less interesting than making it exist in the dream world, which is where the fro character comes in. the entire thing takes place in this man's coma and the character from our world with gasoline, elctricity, and television is actually the last part of his consiousness personified. sort of a wake up beacon.

eventually this developed into a deeper story when i began to listen to the mars volta's "de-loused in the comatorium" religiously. i found out that the idea of a man in a coma is pretty much the idea of "de-loused" as it fictionally re-tells the story of julio venegas, a friend and mentor to cedric and omar from the mars volta.

a few months later i was bored at work and decided to google my name, a rare one. upon looking not to far, i found that there is in fact another dan mountain who uses the internet. sort of. it turns out that this particular dan mountain experienced going into a coma, waking up, and writing about it. he made an album with a man named mark black.

fuckin weird right?

it gets better.

i have a big problem with corporations, churches, and mass media. and stupid people that just willingly believe what they see or hear, rather than think. church, corporations, and mass media want people to be stupid, want people to have the attention span of lab rats, and just willingly spend spend spend. so i developed a colony to resemble the original colonists of north america. so now in the story there are two types of society. those one the forest side of the fence, where monsters and danger lurks daily, and those on the other side of the fence, where you can only enter upon signing a form that gives up all of your human rights and responsibility.

at a bar one night my friend autumn was telling me about adolus huxley's "brave new world". now, i have never read this book, but she explained that there is the same sort of concept going along in that particular novel. a barrier between a "civilized" and "uncivilized" society.

today, i am working on the thesis, and i read (past tense) up on the mars volta's second album "frances the mute" which is about a diary found by one of the former, unfortunately deceased members of the band, Jeremy Ward. it turns out that the diary found was about a person who never knew their biological parents and their search for them.

i read this today, december 10, 2007, but developed the same sort of idea for the fro character, Murphy, named after Murphy's law because this man is bad luck.

why is it that i get things already?

i can understand the mars volta-ness because i listen to them all the time, but honestly i dont know the lyrics nor do i try to decipher them because they are so cryptic. maybe its the feeling of the music. they say they sort of imagine movies happening to their music, and its sort of free form.

but why the other stuff? i dont think i am unorignial because the way i came up with them was out of the air essentially, from feelings i have about the world and people i know or knew.

so what the fuck!

i think in a few days ill re-write this. but i have work to do now